Thursday, June 10, 2010
Who Would You Give Your "Yes" To?
What I mean by this is, Who would you be willing to give your authority to? Who would you be willing to receive "orders', as it may be, from? In choosing a mate, we choose, whether we realize it or not, to give that person authority in our life. I've been head of my home four years, and before that married to a truck driver. So I did pretty much whatever I wanted. Except when he was home. A respected friend said something to me that got me thinking: "You'd have to give up a lot to get married again." I like not having someone to answer to. Or to ask before I do something. I like being in charge. I like not having someone to fight with. I so don't want to fight. But I get tired of my self for company. Of being the only one when something goes wrong. Or being the only one when something goes right. I long for a "grown-up" intimacy. I am a gift. But I will not give my self to just any one. I will not settle. Because I am worth it.